I saw this TikTok video from the user @NDWellness talking about executive dysfunction. Basically being overwhelmed with tasks. You know what you’re supposed to do but your brain just won’t let you do one thing at a time. Your brain wants to complete everything all at once causing a kind of paralysis because you are so overwhelmed.
I was so intrigued by this I had to look up more about it because that is literally me every day. I end up finding this quiz. So today we are learning about Executive Dysfunction. Doing a little mental health check-in with a little self-discovery. If you are interested in the results or wanted to hear my responses to the questions then continue reading.
Where I am Mentally
I am trying to get out of my funk. Something has been going on lately that I can explain like not even a hot shower is doing the trick. I don’t understand what’s going on. I don’t know if it has to do with some PCOS symptoms or my sleep schedule. My sleep schedule is messed up.
I can explain what is going on. It’s just a combination of things. I can’t pinpoint one certain thing that has made me feel this way or is making me feel this way. I just know that physically every day I am tired and it has really taken its toll on my mental health. I’m trying to push through it. so I can try to see the light at the end of the tunnel but sometimes that’s really hard to do.
I have all these things that I want to do and I feel like the motivation is not there and it’s not even motivation. It’s just overwhelming. One task leads to the other task but I can’t do the one task until I do another task and it’s like it just looks like a waterfall effect.
Blogging and Creating Content
I want to know more about executive dysfunction because it would explain a lot of things especially when it comes to blogging and making videos. Everything lately has just become such an overwhelming task to do. Especially when it comes to the things that I love to do. I love writing. I love writing about personal growth but it’s been really hard to do lately when no personal growth has been happening.
I’m not motivated by anything. I want to be happy. I want to spread positivity. I want to spread Joy. It’s kind of like one of those things “fake it till you make it” even though I kind of grew to hate that saying. A part of me is like if I keep posting this stuff… I mean when you come to my blog or my social media pages and find all these inspirational quotes and are being inspired is great. That is what I want but I also want to show you the hard part of personal growth.
Not everything is always as exciting… Like here is my 5 a.m. productivity routine or I wake up at 5 a.m. every day. My life is so aesthetically pleasing… I would love to make videos like that… but also want to show you what also happens. I’m sitting at my desk basically having a mental breakdown…
I’m ramblingly and doing a brain dump if you will… It’s just me going through the motions of what’s in my head. Another thing I do is I record a lot of videos and I just don’t post them because I don’t think they’re good enough. I don’t think people will find them interesting because I don’t do anything interesting.
You read all of this information on the internet that’s like oh just like film everything, film everything, and then just post it. You’ll find your people… But what if you don’t do anything during the day… Well, what if you don’t do anything interesting? Am I going to sit here and make a video of me writing a blog post… That’s not going to happen I would have to force myself to do it… I don’t know I’m rambling right now…
Every Day Tasks
I’m tired… I want to say of the responsibilities of life. They become so overwhelming especially when you work from home. Keeping the house clean even as simple as a task that is… Like doing the dishes, sweeping and mopping the floor, or cleaning the bathroom has become overwhelming.
It makes me even more upset because I know what I need to do especially when it comes to blogging, making videos, and cleaning the house. I know what I’m supposed to do… but my brain just won’t let me do it.
I have all of these ideas that I want to do or all these things in the house that I need to do and I know what I need to do but my brain physically won’t let me do it. So my head is just filled with all of these things that I need to do and I say to myself just pick one thing and start my brain is like no…
It makes me want to cry all the time. Like how hard is it to go to the sink and start washing dishes? Like how hard is it to grab the laundry basket take it to the washer, throw it in… dry it, and put it away?
When you say all of those things out loud it’s like “oh that’s pretty simple”… My brain on the other hand wants everything to be done at once. I don’t know where to start in my mind. It just makes me want to cry cuz I was never like this but slowly over the years… I don’t know how to explain it and I don’t know why I’m getting so emotional about it.
A part of it makes me feel like I’m not good enough. I’m not a good enough human being. Which is stupid I know it has to do with my sleep schedule or probably has something to do with PCOS symptoms.
TikTok makes me question things
I looked up executive dysfunction because I want to know more about what it is about and I came across a little quiz… I KNOW I am kinda self-diagnosing but I just want to see what my results would be. This test says it is an executive dysfunction test: symptoms in adults with ADHD.
For the past, six months I have really started to think that maybe I have ADHD. I haven’t been to a doctor. I am not diagnosed. Some of the videos that I’ve seen on TikTok I relate to a lot and I’m not being like that “That’s my personality. Oh, I have ADHD.”
No, it’s just one of those things where I’m like shit man I relate to that a lot. So it makes you wonder… Is that part of the reason why I am the way that I am? I do need to go to the doctor. I do need to get diagnosed because it has been on my mind for like 6 months.
I kind of just want to see what my results would be with this executive dysfunction test so enough procrastinating…
Executive Dysfunction Test
Executive Dysfunction is a term used to describe the range of cognitive behavioral and emotional difficulties which often occur as a result of another disorder or traumatic brain injury, Individuals with executive dysfunction struggle with planning problem-solving organization, and time management, and normally I am really good with that…
So let’s get started… If you want to take this quiz as well you can find it on additudemag.com
Executive Dysfunction Questions
Yes, Well sometimes it depends on the conversation
I feel like I’m just being called out right now like they’re spying on me through my camera even though my camera as a cover yes, very often
appointments no… if it’s on the calendar if I will be there if you say I have an appointment at 9 a.m. at this place I will be there at like 8:30 because that is one thing that bothers me the most is being late I hate being late. But on occasion, it does happen so we will say rarely
I want to say yes especially when it comes to like writing a blog or doing anything that really interests me. I will zone in and if I start something I have to finish it mind you that also kind of means that I have to start it so once I start getting into it especially when I’m like so passionate about it because I write blogs based on how I’m feeling what I’m doing things that just inspire me and if it doesn’t like I can’t do it… I can’t do it. I always struggled with this when I was in school. We will say sometimes for that
I don’t know what they mean by this I’m trying to think of an example. I’m thinking of the multiple steps I have to do to wash the dishes if that’s the case no I have no problem going from one thing to another especially when it’s repetitive. I am gonna say rarely.
I am very good at keeping an eye on my cell phones my keys my wallet my purse I’ve only lost my wallet 1 in my whole life and that’s only because I went from using a purse to just using a wallet and I forgot and left my wallet sitting next to me at the mall nothing was stolen a group of teenagers turned the wallet into Guest Services didn’t take anything which I was really grateful for but for important things like keys wallet purse or cell phone, I am very good at keeping an eye on those. I will say sometimes but not for the example that they gave.
Drumroll Please… My Score
My score is 41 out of 64 the higher the point total the greater the likelihood that you show signs of executive Dysfunction. So I don’t have it? I don’t know.
This test says I don’t have it, but it doesn’t mean I don’t have it. I am gonna look at this as a form of self-discovery just learning more about ourselves. Do you relate to any of these questions? If you think you have executive function disorder… Take this online test. If it tells you that you don’t fret because you can only take these results with a grain of salt.
I think it’s very helpful to take the test and record yourself taking the test because then you can react to the questions. I did and maybe when I’m editing the video I will learn some things about myself that I didn’t realize that I was speaking about consciously. Sometimes I just speak without thinking and sometimes I think it makes me sound like I’m dumb.
This was fun I really didn’t learn anything… As of right now, I don’t have what I thought… If you do think you do leave me a comment below and let me know if you think you have executive dysfunction… what makes you think that you have that and are you diagnosed or self-diagnosed…
Until next time, Have a great day, and remember you are a badass!
