Hey there, readers! I’m excited to connect with you in a unique way this week by diverging from our usual blog post format. Instead, I’ve opted to provide you with a sneak peek into my inner musings, transforming a personal journal entry into a full-fledged blog post. The focal point of today’s discussion revolves around a pervasive sentiment that has been weighing heavily on my mind lately – The feeling of being overwhelmed. It’s a sensation that has cast a bit of a shadow over my usual upbeat demeanor and has left me navigating through a bit of a slump. Join me as I unravel the layers of this complex emotion and let me know in the comments if you relate!
We’ve all been there—those moments when it feels like everything is piling up, and the weight of responsibilities becomes a bit too much to bear. In this entry, I’m opening up about the challenges, the uncertainties, and the general sense of being overwhelmed that has taken over.
But fear not, I’m optimistic that, in time, I’ll navigate through this mental fog and find my way. Sometimes, it’s just about giving ourselves the space to pour out our thoughts and untangle the mess in our minds. So, join me in this candidly exploring the feeling of being overwhelmed—I might be in a bit of a rut now, but I’m confident that I’ll eventually piece it all together.
The Feeling of Being Overwhelmed
Life has a funny way of tossing everything your way, all at once. It’s like standing in the middle of a chaotic intersection, and every responsibility, task, and obligation is a car zooming past, honking its horn for your attention. Lately, I’ve been feeling like I’m at the epicenter of this bustling intersection, trying to juggle the utter chaos of adulthood.
First off, there’s this persistent feeling of being lost. It’s not the kind of lost where you’re physically wandering around without a map; it’s more like stumbling through the maze of responsibilities, and no matter which turn I take, it feels like I’m heading deeper into the complexity of it all.
At the forefront of this tangled mess is the overwhelming sensation of everything falling squarely onto my shoulders. The weight of managing a household, the relentless chores that keep piling up like an unstoppable avalanche. The dishes seem to get dirtier faster than I can wash them, and the laundry basket is like a bottomless pit that never gets any emptier. It’s a never-ending loop of cleaning and tidying up, and just when I think I’ve got a handle on it, something else demands my attention.
Financial
Like the bills… they seem to have their own agenda. Monthly bills, saving for a vacation, saving to move. All of the stress of managing finances has become a constant companion, and I find myself crunching numbers in my head at odd hours of the night, wondering if I’ve missed something crucial.
Holiday Stress
Don’t even get me started on the holiday season. My favorite time of year is October to January. I love the festive season – the twinkling lights, the warmth of family gatherings, and the joy of giving. But the stress of having to pull all the decor from all different areas of our house including our rickety old shed outside wondering if this is the year our decor gets ruined because the shed FINALLY gives out.
It started leaking last year so we moved a lot of our decor to Mikayla’s closet and our laundry room. The bigger things have to stay outside because we just don’t have the room for them inside. Then once Halloween is over we have to pack everything back up and switch it out for the Christmas decor. Normally we start decorating on November 1st, but something about this year just makes me not want to do it at all.
I think it is the feeling of being overwhelmed, we haven’t seen the kiddo that much this year. Maybe a total of 5 times. I understand she is getting older. She has a boyfriend and friends that she wants to hang out with. We knew this day would come eventually, but it really sucks when it finally does.
Decluttering
Decluttering and shuffling furniture in my house is like trying to untangle a bunch of messy headphone wires – frustrating and overwhelming. Sorting through all my stuff feels like digging through a treasure chest of memories and old junk, and deciding what to keep or toss becomes a mental tug-of-war. Then, when I start moving furniture, it’s like playing a giant game of real-life Tetris. The whole house turns into an obstacle course, and I’m constantly bumping into things. It’s a mix of stress and chaos, but deep down, I’m hoping that once everything’s in place, it’ll be like finding that sweet spot where everything just clicks, and my home becomes a more comfortable and organized space.
Chasing Inspiration
And then there’s the struggle to find time for the things that truly light me up. Writing a blog post – a creative outlet that has become both a source of joy and a gnawing responsibility. It’s not just about stringing words together; it’s about finding that spark of inspiration in the midst of the mundane. But inspiration seems to be playing hide-and-seek, and I’m left chasing after it in a game that never ends.
Social media is another beast that needs taming. Posting regularly feels like feeding a hungry monster that’s insatiable. The pressure to be present and engaging, to share the snippets of a life that’s not always picture-perfect, can be exhausting. It’s a double-edged sword – a way to connect with others, yet a drain on time and energy.
My desire to rekindle my relationship with books. I used to be an avid reader, lost in the worlds crafted by words. But now, every attempt to dive head-first into a book feels like a luxury I can’t afford. The hours slip away, and the unread books on my shelf mock me silently.
In the midst of all this chaos, there’s a constant struggle to stay creative and inspired. It’s like trying to keep a flame alive in a storm – the winds of responsibility, stress, and fatigue threatening to extinguish it at any moment. The well of creativity runs dry, and I’m left wondering if I’ll ever find the oasis of inspiration again.
All the while trying to balance everything above I have a part-time Nanny job. That I am thankful for and gets me out of the house. A little piece of heaven where I don’t have to think about anything. I know exactly what I am doing and when I am doing it. It is a much-needed peace in my otherwise chaotic life.
Embracing the Chaos
Despite all the challenges, there’s a persistent determination to keep going, to find a way through the maze, even if it means taking one step at a time. It’s a reminder that I’m not alone in feeling this way, that there’s a shared human experience of grappling with the messy, overwhelming nature of life.
Maybe the key lies in accepting that it’s okay not to have it all figured out and that the road to clarity is often paved with confusion. It’s a journey of learning to prioritize, to let go of what doesn’t serve me, and to embrace the imperfections of this messy, beautiful life.
So here I am, standing in the midst of the chaos, penning down these thoughts in the hope that, in acknowledging the struggle, I can find a path forward instead of having this feeling of being overwhelmed. It’s a reminder that feeling lost and stuck is just a temporary state, a pit stop on the journey of life. And maybe, just maybe, by navigating through this maze, I’ll stumble upon a clearer, more open road ahead.
Let me know in the comments below if I should turn this into a series where I share my journal entries.
Until next time, Have a great day! Remember you are a badass!
