When I first started Our Redonkulous Life I did not think it would go anywhere. I had been blogging on and off for years. NEVER thought I could or would make it my full-time job. I was just a small-town girl sharing her family adventures in Florida. Slowly morphed into a blog about personal growth and how to go after the life you deserve. So today I want to talk about the growth I’ve experienced as a blogger!
As a blogger, you put your heart and soul into your blog posts spending hours upon hours. Maybe even days upon days making sure everything is right. As a blogger, you wear all the hats as a one-woman or one-man show. Writer, photographer, editor, social media manager, or anything and everything you need to successfully run your blog.
It often leaves you wondering if you are making a difference in this world. I know most of my posts are about me. But I do have my readers in mind when I am writing them. I never know if I have made a difference. Until… I get a comment, a message, or an email from readers. Those make my day so much. I print them out and put them on my wall directly behind my computer so when I am writing. I can look up to read the words that I HAVE inspired in others.
Putting myself out there
I am a very outgoing person in real life, but online I find it a little hard to do. That is one thing I have had to get used to since starting this blog. Especially when it comes to personal growth. It is one thing to write about personal growth. It is another to actually show that you are doing the process and practicing the words you write every week.
I know I still don’t put myself out there on video as much as I should. Slowly, I am still working on it. I get in my head and think what I am saying is stupid. Even if it is stupid. At least I can show anyone who watches my video it’s okay to just be yourself.
Even with the few videos, I have made between Instagram, Tiktok, and Youtube. There has been growth I’ve experienced. Tiktok has been the most because of one video of me being silly… Started with a few 100 followers to now over 8900.
If you look on my computer or google photos I have a lot of videos and PHOTOS that I never posted because I got self-conscious. I am slowly… I mean slooooooooooooooooowly posting them because…
The #1 goal will always be
To be real. I never want to put out there on the internet that my life is all rainbows and sunshine. I want to be honest and be myself in all my posts. Including the curse words. Some may not like it but it is me. I have been censored way too much in my life. At 36 I just don’t care what people think of me. I may not be your cup of tea, but I will be someone else’s and that is okay.
If you can skip over the curse words. Take the message behind the post and apply it to your life. The curse words are 0.5% of the post. I promise there is so much good information in there just give it a chance.
ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS… I want to be relatable to my readers and vice versa. Never will I fake that I live the Pinterest lifestyle. Just call me the discounted Walmart version because I FREAKING LOVE WALMART. I am a small-town girl trying to make something of herself. It is a modern fairytale of rags to riches. Call me James Corden we will do another remake of Cinderella. HAHAHAHA
The development I’ve experienced
Each week I have written about things I am doing or things I want to do. Like Ciara Strickland or Dustin Ramsdell, I am still amazed by the growth I’ve experienced. I know I still have a long way to go. But my mental and emotional state has had the biggest impact.
Especially sharing my stories with your guys every week. Doing that shadow work. It really has helped me gain confidence and new self-respect I didn’t know I had. It’s those loyal readers who come back each and every week. Who share their experiences that give me the push to share mine.
I know A LOT of people who would rather me just zip it and get over it. But I am not like them. I have to talk about it. WHY?? Because talking about it breaks generational trauma. We are done passing down our trauma to our kids.
In a nutshell
In a nutshell, the growth I’ve experienced in the past 2 years of blogging has been crazy.
1. Got to work through a lot of trauma that I held inside.
2. Learned a lot more about my parents.
3. I got a little bit of closure about my dad’s death.
4. I am loving my body more, not being ashamed of my size.
5. I am pushing myself with the clothes I am wearing. The FUPA is flying!!
6. I tried dying my hair a funky color! It was a fail, but still… I will eventually fix it.
7. I have gained confidence in myself.
8. I have learned who my real friends are.
9. It is okay to set boundaries. It is their problem if they don’t accept them.
10. It is okay to be vulnerable on the internet with a bunch of strangers. Because a lot of us are just trying to “Figure it out”
There is so much more growth I’ve experienced, but these are the most significant.
and that is just the beginning of the Personal growth I’ve experienced or will experience as a blogger… I still have a lot to learn about blogging and myself.
Until next time, have a great day, and remember you are a badass!